I suffer from severe depression, now I have suffered for over 10 years. I go through many obstacles, many setbacks and many disappointments. In my book I describe how I keep trying to find my way back to everyday work. I have to deal with a number of difficult situations: psychiatrists, clinics, jobs, income and psychiatric expertise reports. But I keep trying to make the best of it, to find my way around and I do not give up. I explain how difficult it can be. But I always find the strength again to keep on going and to keep on hoping. I do not give up. ACTUALLY I would do many things differently, if I was not suffering from depression. True stories, true life events, true life courses, true experiences. Real feelings, real thoughts, real problems, real challenges, real moments, real people. A REAL illness.

I have had severe depression for over 10 years. But, even before my depression, I had an exciting life. There were bad, difficult, interesting, exciting, unimaginable, and sad things. I write about how I stood on the street with my luggage and did not know whether I should spend the night in the park. The incredible horror finding on our refrigerator is explained in more detail in one chapter. In another chapter, I explain what it was like to see the inside of a psychiatric clinic for the first time. I tell you about my brother’s bipolar personality disorder. I write about getting to know my husband, about marriage, the birth of my son, the separation, and the divorce. I write about our first family vacation, which ended in hospital and prison. I write about the suicide of my beloved brother, how we heard about it and how we dealt with it. I explain how I used to see depression and how I see it now. My book ends with some kind of advice, summarised by myself, which I would give.